In my last post, I talked about meeting a lot of new people and reintroducing myself over and over again as an aspiring- slightly accomplished- writer. When I first started this blog I wrote an introduction post. It contained less of what I had to say about myself and more about what others had to say about me. Don’t get me wrong, I still think that post is the most innocently adorable post on here, I truly do still love it.
That being said, I did write that introduction back in 2020. Four years, two graduations, one book, multiple random jobs, lots of new people, and lots of goodbyes later, I feel slightly like the same person, but I feel more like a total stranger from that girl in 2020.
So, what could one more introduction hurt?
My first introduction post being more about what others said about me was really fitting because I am often really confused about myself…
(Before I dive into what I’m about to say next, I am not here to talk solely about my experience in religion, and I am definitely on here to bash it. This is simply such a big part of my life and it’s a big part of my introduction)
…Up until this point in my life, I have been completely connected to a religion I grew up in. It was planted in my family, my friendships, a lot of my relationships. It took up a lot of my time, energy, worldly understanding, personal and spiritual awareness, etc. Even though I’ve separated myself from it for a long time, it was always still connecting itself to me.
This is something I have had a difficult time dealing with. I was trying to find myself and what my purpose was without this outer influence affecting those thoughts and feelings.
So, let’s start simple. Here are some random things that Natilee loves, in no particular order:
- typing in lowercase (i hope you don’t mind)
- sunsets/sunrises/pretty skies
- farmers market’s
- flowers !!!! of any kind in any variation
- dreaming… i love having a big goal to work towards
- writing (that’s a given i think)
- my puppy!!! i love being a dog mom
- coffeeeeee
- golf (i’m a newbie, but i love it)
- TRAVEL!!! other than being successful in writing, being well-traveled and seeing the world is my biggest dream
- pickleball
- drawing/painting/being artistic in any way possible
- making people smile and laugh (the best feeling)
- clothes haha (thrifting especially !!)
- reading!!!!!! (i don’t read as much as i think i should, sometimes i feel imposter syndrome because of this)
- decorating, i love finding cute new things and implementing them into my life and home
- CELEBRATING!!! if there is something to celebrate, i am going to go to embarrassing lengths to celebrate it
- taking pictures, i am constantly documenting life in one way or another
- sleeping in (i have the hardest time taking naps, but you will definitely catch me sleeping in on the weekend lol)
- hiking, going on walks, being outside!!
- THE RAIN! i will always love a sunny day, but i feel most at peace and like myself when it is raining outside. i just feel connected to it.
- talking and chatting, it’s so cool that we get to share our thoughts, feelings, etc. with other people around us
I guess the conclusion I am coming to in this post is that I define myself by the things I love and am passionate about. I have become less worried about defining myself and my life as a whole. In this moment, these are the things that make me, me. 🙂
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