dancing queen

The other day I randomly heard the song Dancing Queen and, as I was singing along in my head to the song, I realized that I did not dance enough to this song when I was 17. I know I definitely danced to it on my 17th birthday, and I probably listened to it right before my 18th birthday, but I feel like I should’ve made more of a conscious effort to listen to Dancing Queen while I was “only 17”.

This might seem like a really silly regret, and I will admit that it really is. But, it also got me thinking, what other random things do I regret? Or what things am I doing or not doing right now that I am going to regret in the future?

As I got thinking about this, I actually felt a lot of peace because I honestly don’t have a ton of things in my past that I truly regret. I am grateful that I have, at some point in my life, come to the great realization that I am who I am and where I am because of where I was.

If I think hard enough about it, I might remember a bad outfit I wore, or maybe I do regret a terrible ex-boyfriend or two (or three). I might regret a fight with a friend or I might regret not reaching out to people more. But at the end of the day, that is not something I worry about as much.

Right now, I am far more worried about what I am doing right now in my life that I will regret later. I feel like I am spending far too much time rotting away on my phone or just in my apartment in general. I feel like I am not getting out and exploring and actually doing things enough. When I am cooping myself up and find myself endlessly scrolling or accidentally watching a whole season of a show, I don’t realize it that much. But I really am worried about the regrets I will have about it later.

Maybe that’s why I do not have as many regrets in my past to worry about because maybe I’ve always been more worried about not having regrets. Maybe I only focus on regrets for a small amount of time and then they tend to be less regretful in the future, like how I regret not writing this post for Sunday and putting it off until today, but I’m sure I’ll forget about that by next week. And maybe it is just a little silly to be regretful. Doesn’t everyone say living in the past takes you out of the present? Or something like that? haha

Anyways, I think I’ll go dance to Dancing Queen now. See you next Sunday.