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self-destructing

I have wondered lately where the line between dreams and reality is. If the line is blurred, or even possibly disintegrated altogether, then does that make life a dream? Or does that make a sad and dreamless life? If one achieves all of the hopes and dreams, do more come? Is life content? Is itContinue reading “self-destructing”

another introduction

In my last post, I talked about meeting a lot of new people and reintroducing myself over and over again as an aspiring- slightly accomplished- writer. When I first started this blog I wrote an introduction post. It contained less of what I had to say about myself and more about what others had toContinue reading “another introduction”

what do you want to do?

Last week I wrote a post talking about feeling like a writer and wanting to start posting every week. This week’s post is going to piggyback off that one in a lot of ways. I want to start feeling more like a writer, but why is that important to me? Being a writer and aContinue reading “what do you want to do?”

feeling like a writer

I dearly miss the days when this blog was a place for me to blog my thoughts in a consistent and enriching way, and/or a way for me to show off physical journaling as well. Instead, it feels like a distant relative that you see once in a while and realize that the dread ofContinue reading “feeling like a writer”

the new year

The satisfying numbers that this year held didn’t really live up to the expectations that I had for it. That statement is not to say that I had a bad, disappointing, or underwhelming year. But, the last thing I would consider calling this year was satisfying. I felt rushed a lot of the time, IContinue reading “the new year”

portland, oregon

Trees fly past us and my eyes are captured by their beauty as if I had never seen a tree before in my life. As if I had never even seen the color green. The rain is making the scene even more beautiful, even if it’s making my boyfriend slightly more anxious on this drive.Continue reading “portland, oregon”

sushi restaurant

I stumble into a sushi restaurant in the nearest big city to my hometown. About 30 minutes away. I’m alone and I have a panic attack parallel parking on the skinny street. Although I am fairly decent at parallel parking; I would say it’s the party trick that I rarely get to prove. Just merelyContinue reading “sushi restaurant”

frankenstein again

I am currently sitting in a cafe reading Frankenstein for the third time. At the age of 19, I think reading Frankenstein three times might be a little much. Especially when it’s not necessarily enjoyed by that 19-year-old. That being said, a lot is being learned still. The things being learned are not just fromContinue reading “frankenstein again”

dad

he works hard and loses everything he works harder and loses more he still smiles really big ear to ear slightly crooked he’s a little insecure but it’s beautiful and everyone he knows knows it a smile filled with care and love and years of pain and growth and happiness of course “is your dadContinue reading “dad”

repetition

Maybe this is just becoming a place where I can write out my difficulties in life until they seem like lessons; until I can make the negatives turn into positives. I think that’s the reason I love writing so much. It’s the only thing that can repeat and repeat and repeat and I never getContinue reading “repetition”